“Unless you have been very, very lucky, you have undoubtedly experienced events in your life that have made you cry. So unless you have been very, very lucky, you know that a good, long session of weeping can often make you feel better, even if your circumstances have not changed one bit.”—Lemony Snicket (via infinitives)
“People use the word ‘love’ in a lot of different ways. Take me, for instance. I am often heard saying that I love my mom and dad. I am also often heard saying that I love pizza. What am I saying when I say I love my mom and dad? I’m saying that I care about them. I’m saying that I love spending time with them and that I talk to them every chance I get. I’m saying that if they needed me, I would do everything humanly possible to help them. I’m saying that I always want what’s best for them. What am I saying when I say I love pizza? Am I saying that I care deeply about pizza? Am I saying that I have a relationship with pizza? Am I saying that if pizza had a problem, I would be there for the pizza? (What? Not enough pepperoni? I’ll be right there!) Of course not. When I say I love pizza, I’m saying that I enjoy eating pizza until I don’t want any more pizza. Once I’m tired of the pizza, I don’t care what happens to the rest of it. I’ll throw it away. I’ll feed it to the dog. I’ll stick it in the back of the refrigerator until it gets green and moldy. It doesn’t matter to me anymore. These are two very different usages of the word ‘love’. It gets confusing when people start talking about love, and especially about loving you. Which way do these people love you? Do they want what’s best for you, or do they just want you around because it’s good for them, and they don’t really care what happens next to you? Next time someone looks deeply into your eyes and says ‘I love you’, look very deeply right back and say, ‘Would that be pizza love or the real thing?’”—Mary Beth Bonacci (via complectus)
“When you start to really know someone, all his physical characteristics start to disappear. You begin to dwell in his energy, recognize the scent of his skin. You see only the essence of the person, not the shell. That’s why you can’t fall in love with beauty. You can lust after it, be infatuated by it, want to own it. You can love it with your eyes and body but not your heart. And that’s why, when you really connect with a person’s inner self, any physical imperfections disappear, become irrelevant.”—Lisa Unger (via atomos)
“Never learned a word that would insure safety, so I spoke softly and I tip toed often. The door to my room was like a big old coffin. The way that it creaked when I closed it shut. Anxieties peaked when it opened up. As if everything that I was thinking would be exposed. I still sleep fully clothed.” -Sage Francis
“You say that you love rain, but you open your umbrella when it rains. You say that you love the sun, but you find a shadow spot when the sun shines. You say that you love the wind, but you close your windows when wind blows. This is why I am afraid, you say that you love me too.”— William Shakespeare (via venebelle)
this is the part that i dont understand.. a single promise could turn someone 180degrees. I am still not convince enough but hey wth, but it feels like a dream, like i had a dream and it comes true..feels weird.. but its ok.. i still cant state weather its real or not.. i still cant think, i can just blow it away you see.. but i wont.. isnt it what i want?
i blew up their wedding..ok i promised them to help them to make a wedding video, as i looked up all the wedding and prewedding photos i assumed they had the wedding already. They went back to malay.. I still had to make the video.. they were so easy going.. they wanted it by early jan, i asked them a date, they said just as my paste.. i didnt really care, i was sick and busy working.. 5 days ago i was out the whole 3 days hanging out with firends from melb and busy working, i didnt even have the time to check my email.. my sis who went on holiday to malay texted me ‘hows the video na?the wedding is tomorrow” it was on saturday. ‘WTF’ they did not even tell me the weding would be on sunday! i was fucked…. i told my sis i couldnt finish it coz ill be busy and they did not even tell me that the weding would be on sudnday… i checked my email they mail me on friday but i didnt check my email…. oh wth… so yeah i didnt finish the video and i didnt care about it.. as they did not tell me they would be needing it for the re-wedding in malay.. so yeahh.. fucked.. ahahahaha
yeah, i had to pay my korean fee today then i had to use mom card.. as i had to do it ol, but fucked, i received 2 receipts through my email… yeah, have to go to customer service tomorow to fix things up.. shittt….
yeah.. i havent taking care of my self properly lately, and since i dont have fb, i havent heard form my 2 best friend which having a holiday at the moment.
We ment to go to coogee tomorow.. I was asked to organise the meeting and stuff.. but it wasnt really convinience to texted everyone.. they asked me to make an event on fb.. hey i didnt have fb.. so i asked a friend to do it for me.. and havent heard back from her till now.. so idk wheather i should go tomrow or not.. or should i just fix my korean payment problem…